Recovery week 6: Need prayers

Hello friend.

I hope you are all fine.

I was doing great, improving in my recovery. But since last week, I have a headache and a pain in my right ear. Drs are confused with those symptoms. They think about a recurrence of the tumor in my throat plus I have been having a hard time swallowing lately. Of course they just want to be safe they are not sure, the pain might also be caused by the scar tissue in my throat pressuring all muscles around it. It's hard to tell. A look of my Throat by the ENT today didn't show any changes but he thinks it's better to do a scan.

I will have a MRI tomorrow morning ( Friday, Sept 14,2012) and an endoscopy scheduled for 09.28.2012.In case of recurrence I'll go back to treatment immediately. Let's hope it's not the case here.

I didn't sleep for the past few days thinking about a brain tumor. I have a very bad ache. But the ENT Dr this morning don't think there is something in my brain. Yes! It hurts a lot specially at night, but he is sure it's all related to my ear, which is related to my throat. I got more pain killers and antibiotics in case of infection in my ear so I hope for a better sleep tonight.

I've tried my best not to be sick in my mind throughout my treatment. But the recovery it's so stressful. There is something new everyday. Sometimes I feel like I'm giving up. I've never been so tired in my life before. But I still have my faith and I know God loves me. I hope to hang onto it.

I think it's been a long time since January 2012. Anyone in my position would show signs of tiredness by now. I need you. Please help me here, have me in your thoughts and prayers.

Thanks.

Love,
Aisha


Stay blessed and thank you all for your love and prayers...
Aisha

Recovery week 5

Another week ...

I don't remember much of this week. I have been very busy with my family. Thank God for that.

I met Dr Salem on Friday and she thinks the pain in my right ear is related to the scar tissues in my throat.  She advices to use hot and cold patches around the neck. Let's see what comes out of it.

The pain in my throat is basically at the same level. I use pain killer and I'm able to eat liquid food. Because it takes me an hour to eat, I use my feeding tube for breakfast and lunch then I eat by mouth for dinner when I have more time.

I still have my spittoon every where ...

The scar from the burn on my neck is almost gone. People barely notice it.

My mood is great and that's what matters the most I think.

Stay blessed and thank you all for your love and prayers... 

Aisha

Recovery: week 4

I'm happy that time flies so fast... It seems like yesterday I was starting my recovery... 4 weeks later I would say I'm still very optimistic. It isn't easy and I never thought it would be. But, I'm sure it will improve everyday/week/month/year. My faith is stronger than never before. I enjoy talking to God or talking about God, what he did to me and my family. I have been fortunate with great friends and support since day 1. 

About my physical status, things are stable I would say. I have some pain in my ear from time to time. I can't relate it to something specific. I searched on line and most people describe the same pain few weeks off treatment. I will wait until my next appointment on August 30 with Dr Salem and we will see what she thinks about it. A week ago I was able to eat using pain killers for my throat. But now it's really hard to swallow again. In some forums on line most people say they didn't eat anything up to 16 weeks after the treatment was over. I will be patient and try again soon.

Emotionally I'm doing great. I'm happy to be free to take my girls to places they like. I go to church now... We just came back from a week at the beach. The only problem is my spittoon but I'm fine with it. I hope people around me too.

Recovery is a long and personal process. Optimism and positive attitude help a lot

Stay blessed and thank you all for your love and prayers...

Aisha

Recovery: week 3

No much changes from last week, except my hair. I have more hair growing now. I'm able to eat by mouth, but I still have to take the pain medicine to swallow. I use my feeding tube here and there. But I try to eat my main meals by mouth.

I feel great. For the first time in 7 months I did not see a Dr this week.

I'm so amazed. God is great and I enjoy all the blessings in my life. I went to a birthday party where I ate meat and corn...

Stay blessed and thank you all for your love and prayers...
Aisha

Recovery: week 2

Like I said last week, things will only get better.

I feel good. I saw Dr O'connor on Friday and she is happy with how things are moving. Yeah!

Last week I was using 4 cans/day with my feeding tube. I couldn't do more unfortunately. I noticed some improvement in my throat, sometimes I'm able to swallow some water when I wash my mouth.

I ate my first meal today ( 6, August) around lunch time. I was able to eat enough. It's still hard to talk about the taste but I enjoyed my meal. I'm very excited and can't wait to try other food.

I cut my hair. I hope now growing, it will look like the one I had before.

I'm so blessed. God is God.


Stay blessed and thank you all for your love and prayers...
Aisha